I’m back – finally – with no excuses. Well, it’s my page and I want excuses…I haven’t had time – that’s bs; I have nothing to say – that’s bs; I don’t stay on top of things out of fear of failure – maybe. But what am I going to fail at? That is hard to say since I’ve never finished anything of any real importance.
It is true…from learning a new language, instrument, homework to being a good mother. I am a good mother but only after years of ups and downs and even then, I left my kids in 2014, when I moved to Florida. I think that is where I am at.
I am at a point that I sometimes feel guilty about leaving my kids. However, I did touch base with my kids over this past [political] holiday. The youngest was camping with friends. The other two were hanging together at the house with my new grandbaby. As I reflect on this, my mind is telling me, ‘They are fine. They have their own lives. My kids are ok.’ And, it’s true, they are fine but my heart say they still need me. And I don’t mean need me like I have to be there, but need me just knowing I am here and will be here as long as I can, and hopefully that will be a long while. Wait, wasn’t I typing about not completing anything, back to that…
So, can’t finish anything, really? Hopefully…more later.
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