Yea, I know, it’s been a while. I want to write, but, I think there is a component of avoidance. Both my counselor and intuitive have suggested, repeatedly, to write! It’s almost like a kid being told to clean their room, they will find the smallest of things to distract from the task, that eventually, they are told again, until they can no longer find the floor of the room. This is kind of what I am going through.
I want to write but procrastinate – did I mention I am really, REALLY good at procrastination? I am. As can be seen by the infrequency I write.
Things to remember why I write…for myself. Why? Because, I can write, write, write – doesn’t matter what I write, I am expressing my thoughts.
A great quote, “I have no power, yet, I am filled with opinions.” Fran Lebowitz. I love that quote. I am still trying to get over the ‘no power’. It’s true, very few of us have power, though many of us believe we do have power. I do not have the power to make anyone read my stuff and like it. I have no power to change another’s view of their life. I like to think I have the power to change the world, but, the truth is, I don’t. Besides, what power I have, or think I have, affects only me. And, even then, how much power do I have.
Well, I have the power to control what, and how much I eat. I control when I take a shower. When I go to bed…well, lets be real, if I’m tired, my body will sleep when it chooses, like falling asleep on the couch. 😉 However, I do not necessarily have control over when I have to go to the bathroom (doesn’t matter which). I do not have control over my hair turning grey, or my skin getting thinner…or wrinkly! I do have control over how long my nails are – I can trim them, but, I cannot stop them from growing.
Just like time, control is an illusion created by humans to control humans.
Reality, there is no time to control nor a way to control time … so is the nature of things.
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